Proverbs 3: 5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
A common passage, used often, read often. Understood fully? For me, not until this time in my life. I do not understand all that has gone on in my life these past two months. I understand that I'm not in control and I had no power to change or prevent what has become of my life and marriage. But I do know this, because of that powerlessness and that lack of understanding, I have no choice but to stop trying to control the outcomes. I simply trust. I say, "God, do with me what you will. Heal me how you see fit. I know your way is the only way for things to ever be right again, however that is supposed to look." And amazingly, He is making my paths straight. Other versions of the Bible say, "...and He will direct your paths." He is definately directing, but I love the idea of Him not just directing me, but Him actually straightening out the mess of my life and unbending the crooked roads, straightening my path all along the way.