Here I am just 5 weeks until my due date and still finding myself shocked and amazed that I am going to have a baby. It just wasn't ever supposed to happen. I am excited and amazed and a tad bit apprehensive as to how our family dynamics will change. Jay is beginning to get really excited and loves on my belly everyday. Chad is still going through so much with his job right now it's hard to have the same connection we had when we were pregnant with Jay. Most of the time I haven't even known exactly what week I'm in. Maybe that's just a first baby thing - everything is so new and unique. I don't know, but I don't think it will hit me full force until this little person is in my arms. I pray it is healthy and normal. Those are real fears for me as well. I pray that I will be the parent I need to be to two children as being a parent to just one is hard enough. Wow, how our lives are fixing to change!
Not a better time than the beginning of a new year. I'm excited to see what God has in store!
